I still cannot believe that I will be a Tedtalk speaker in less than one month.
Once I got the acceptance email, it has truly been a whirlwind of emotions. I wish I could tell you that this has been a breeze and that I have handled the preparation seamlessly. However, that is simply not the case.
Truthfully, I have had multiple breakdowns as I have succumbed to my perfectionistic tendencies. Folks, when your dreams come true it can bring a sense of pressure and high expectations with it. I have even thought about withdrawing because I want my talk to be impactful, energizing, gripping, PERFECT.
This box I have placed around myself has crippled me, until now.
Isn’t it funny how life puts the very thing we need to work on right in front of our faces? Needless to say, preparing for my talk has been one of the hardest things I have ever done. Yet, I have grown and, in all honesty, the process has provided insight for my talk that I otherwise would not have had. The one thing I have learned time and time again in my life is that connection happens when I am authentic and honest.
So why did I spend the first two months of this journey trying so hard to not be myself? It is such a healing moment when the realization hits us that we just might be enough, the way we are. I cannot wait to show up for you all, perfectly imperfect and even more than that, I hope that I can create a space where you can show up as you, too.